WHAT i WANT

two good friends of mine asked me today what i want in life. wow...what a question. since they asked me, i have been thinking all day, wondering what i want exactly in life.

i want my life to impact others. i want to be a grandfather that spoils my grandchildren. i want to be remembered as someone focusing on others. i want to be loved.

i know i dont want to die alone. i dont want to feel like my life was worthless. i dont want to end my life without loving friends/family around me.

the friends i have now mean the world to me. i pray they stay, building more memories.

my legacy.

every person has a legacy.

a legacy is how people remember you... it is simply the impact we instill on the individuals we encounter.

lately, i've been wondering what my legacy is. do people remember me because of my skills in the swimming pool? my yearbook achievements? outgoing personality? what is it about jarron james that people are remembering?

and then it dawned on me. my legacy is a legacy of selflessness. it's a legacy of friendships rooted in trust, dedication, and love. i desire those around me to remember me as one who desires the best in others. but i am worried my legacy i've worked on creating is slowly deteriorating before my eyes. those i once called my friends turned on me. those i once turned for support now give me the cold shoulder.

but the more i think about it, the more i realize the truth: those who really care for me are there for me no matter what. so here i am, ecstatic to know my legacy is thriving in only a few who i care about most in this materialistic world.

i am smiling. i am rejoicing. i have a legacy.

this is YOUR life.

the following lyrics by switchfoot are phenomenal. if you think about it, "this is your life" is a song that calls us to act. nobody can decide your life; individually, you are the one that is responsible for writing your life's story. "are you who you want to be" is an extremely powerful phrase. are you living the life you desire, or are you living the life your parents want you to live? our dreams should become reality. our dreams should become the driving force for action.

read through the portion of the song i've chosen. the message is very powerful.
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Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
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