bestfriends && love

i used to think that life revolved around two desires: the desire to find that one person you can confide in with everything and the desire to find true love. that was then, this is now. i now dont know exactly what i believe.

i have found that bestfriends are, quite frankly, pointless. i can call somebody a best friend, but sooner or later they seem to fall short and hurt me beyond words. you may say im too critical, but personal experiences in the past 4 years have fostered my conclusion on bestfriends.

within the last 6 months i have seen what love is and what love is definitely not. it hurts me to say that i dont believe, at this point in my life, in true love. true love probably exists for me somewhere down the road, but my frustrations and confusions with this damn world have left me so mad that i cant stand the word.

boredom.

so. im bored. im alone.
what shall i do?

((a new blog full of intimate topics will come soon))